~LONELY~

i feel so lonely now...

1st time in my life ...

i feel like i'm lost now...

no way to go...

i gotta face every situation n problem all by myself...

no one is with me now...

Friends?

where are they?

they are there...

just they are there not for me...

i'm alone...

thousand of things are running in my mind now...

making me dizzy...

stars on my head...

spin n turn...

everything just doesn't seems right now...

y? y? y?

i dunno...anyone knows?

* * * * *

i'm not born 2 be alone...

never ...ever...

but...

the fact is

i'm alone now

i'm nothing...but a human...

am i a human?

maybe yes...maybe no...

i don't know...

i'm lost now...

no direction at all...

compass had spoiled...

clouds cover up the stars...

not even a single point that can lead me out of this lonely island...

I'm alone.

~Z.X~

now is around 11.46pm i should have sleep now...

i'm tired...but i got no one 2 talk with ...

that's y i'm here 2 post ...

Ching Ming

清明时节雨纷纷。。。
Friday (27/3) - today in tuition...i've done a very "tut" yet "yey" thing...which is i score 4 correct out of 10 question in the test given by my tution teacher...haha i wasn't that sad...cuz i knew i really sucks in chapter 6 maths (p/s to those maths pro who see this post...dun chuan k? ^^)...actually whole class result more or less not more than 5 correct...well...wad 2 do? haha that's wad tuition for...

After tuition ...online..duh...haha...then my cousins reached my house around 12.30am...then ...should we sleep ??? yea we should... but r we that guai??? r we that obedient???
such a no way for us to sleep haha....jz chit chat ! girls time !!! haha
we chit n chat till 2 something...only we go n made appoinment with "Mr.Zhou"haha xP

Saturday (28/3)- 2day i woke up at 6.58pm...n dunno wad 2 do...at last i go n sleep again around 7.30am haha...then woke up at 9am...sleep again...woke up at 10am...wanna sleep again but...kena nag edi....haha
2day i din do nothing much ...very boring indeed...that's y i'm here 2 post ! haha...

-To Be Continue-

~Z.X~

An Awful day for me

i'm feeling so awful now...dunno y...
lots of things running in my mind now...
my result this time ...zzz...jz prepare 4 my mum's nagging...
that doesn't matter...i've some sort of get use 2 it...xP

i really feeling so awful now...i'm home alone...no one 2 talk with
i dun feel like speaking too...jz dunno y i suddenly dun feel like wanna open my mouth n talk...
feeling so ....e...em...emo...again... dunno y...

argh! ! ! ................................... aisei...

~Z.X~

Life after exam is getting boring...

After exam...we gotta receive the result and nobody likes that...
especially this time...i got no idea how am i going 2 face my mum with such a result this time...
hope she can forgive me...i've told b4 the exam started that my result this time may be very teruk...[well...everytime i feel that xP] but seriously this time i got no confidence in any subjects...

After exam...we jz keep rushing for projects...becuz of projects we become so busy...
well if we could have fun then nvm...but the problem now is we r rushing like hell n no fun at all...

After exam...or i should say during the exam week...i found that some of my frens were starting 2 stay away from me...nope is not stay away...is just like the distance between me n them r getting farther...
well...that's wad i felt that's y i write in here...i think i know y...but i still not sure with my reason...i got no idea man...jz dunno lar...jz hope i din offence anyone...lolz x(

exam's cool sometimes...at least we study 4 something...have an aim...
after exam, rushing for folio...aim 4 ...nothing...zzz...
u can see that i'm bored that's y i typed so many craps here...[actually lots of things r waiting for me 2 finish...hehe XP]

~Z.X~

Lost Generation by Jonathan Reed

something i've learnt from the leadership camp...u might think it'll be boring at 1st...but pls be patient n read the poem below:

I am part of a lost generation
and I refuse to believe that
I can change the world
I realize this may be a shock but
"Happiness comes from within."
is a lie, and
"Money will make me happy."
So in 30 years I will tell my children
they are not the most important thing in my life
My employer will know that
I have my priorities straight because
work
is more important than
family
I tell you this
Once upon a time
Families stayed together
but this will not be true in my era
This is a quick fix society
Experts tell me
30 years from now,I will be clebrating the 10th anniversary of my divorce

I do not concede that
I will live in a country of my own making
In the future
Enviromental destruction will be the norm
No longer can it be said that
My peers and I care about this earth
It will be evident that
My generation is apathetic and lethargic
It is foolish to presume that
There is hope

And all of this will come true unless we choose to REVERSE it.
[try 2 read again by reversing it...u will clap ur hand after u've done reading]

1st day of Leadership Camp

i reached scul around 9am ...actually i was late bout half an hour [ sry guys...stupid traffic jam lar xP]
when i reached scul everybody was outside the scul...ready 2 go 2 Taman Jaya 2 have an Ice Breaking session...i straight away walked 2 prefect room n settle down my luggage then joined with my frens...
Seniors started giving us a briefing bout the camp...bla bla bla...quite long actually haha
then it's GAME time! we were hoping some exciting games...then...u know wad we played???

1st game was something deal with pair works...it was like when a person shouts ur partner's name then u gotta shout another person's name before u n ur parter kena whack by seniors...
at 1st everybody wasn't alert...so kena whack lol...haha then kena kicked out...haha [i kena kicked out too...but it wasn't really my fault haha jz have fun man!]

2nd game at least better becuz we played with our own form ...nice...
that game known as "Beep,Bob,Bang"
Beep means go on, Bob means reverse, Bang means the person who kena shoot gotta squat down n the 2 person who r next 2 the person that kena shoot need 2 shoot each other ...who fast who win...[i bet u guys dun understand it cuz i dunno how 2 describe the game ...paisei hor...]
that game i also kena kicked out very fast haha...n 1 funny part was i said BOOPs instead of Bob...haha then everybody laughed haha...
then the finalist of each form played together

then the 3rd game which i liked the most was Name Searching...
Seniors pasted our name in Taman Jaya...in such a big compound u gotta find ur name...well it's not easy but we made it ! cuz we helped each other...when we saw a name we jz shout :" bla bla bla...ur name is here !" that's wad we did...wee~proud of us man! haha
then u gotta get into ur group according 2 the colour...n my group colour was PEACH !!!
in our group we have 11 group members which r :
1.Wong Woon Khai ( our group leader =)
2.Lee Su Saint ( the white cutty )
3.Yeoh Chien Wei ( the talented beauty)
4. Ting Zoon Kiat ( a stranger to me)
5. Yong Yi Leng ( my last year group member haha)
6. Ler Xin Yi ( assistant leader)
7. Chai Wei Jie ( a kinda left out boy...)
8. Choo Yuen Foong ( the awesome guy)
9. Yeong Xiu Hui ( the english pro)
10.Chong Zhi Kai ( the white guy)
11.CZX me lar... ( the talkative girl..haha)

wanna listen 2 our team cheer??? then pls scroll down...

What team ???
PERFECT PEACH !!!
What team ???
PERFECT PEACH !!!
we are...
Perfect
Effiecient
Awesome
Commited
Hillarius

PERFECT PEACH .... ROX!!!

to be continue...

Last day of exam...wee~

2day is the last day of exam...wee~~~SJ,Geo, maths 1...

Geo was like a bit common sense...zzz...
i was so nervous this morning bout form 2 geo ...
but...jz came out something can answer base on common sense...aiyo...

Maths 1...30 questions only...nice man...
i kept saying can't wrong...but i've wrong 2 questions so far...stupid man...
( jz hope maths 2 wasn't that teruk cuz the marks is higher...)

Sejarah...walao...last minute study worked man!
i study form 3 Sj last minute outside the class 5 minutes b4 the exam starts man!
that was cool...cuz wad i studied last minute came out man!!!

During Sejarah exam...especially around 12.15pm...
i was actually counting down...waiting 4 12.25pm...then exam's over...
it was cool ! ! !

after passing up the SJ answer sheets...well...everybody jz said "yes!" but no one shout or yell or cheer cuz everybody knows that this 1 jz the 1st exam...we still got so many 2 go...trial exam somemore...those r more even torturing...duh...
nothing 2 happy for actually...jz can relax n enjoy the 1 week holiday while other forms still gotta study 4 exam ...haha XD

after exam...went 4 camp briefing...
i'm going 2 prefect camp next Mon 16/03-18/03(Wed)...at Nur Lembah Pangsun
a camp site...we gotta sleep in tents which can fit in 2 ppl only...
hope it's fun...(well,eventhough it's not ...but i think i will still play like crazy haha)

exam's over...for now...relax time...ahh...
but..........
folio-S are driving us crazy ! ! ! KH,SJ,GEO, Sivik, PJPK...5 folioS 2 rush during this holiday...that makes holidays suck...urgh ... wad 2 do??? jz do lol...aisei...

~Z.X~

3rd day of exam

2day is the 3rd day of exam...jz got KH n BC...

KH...er...not really good in teras...
tembak lots of questions...hehe BIAng...BiaNG...haha

BC...er...ok gua..i think...hehe
my zhong kai is getting ... not really nicer...jz smaller...
then...i found out 1 thing that is...
4 chinese i used longer time then BM...that's weird anyway...

2moro is the last day of exam!!!...[not really happy...becuz...]
becuz...2moro got SEJARAH....GEOGRAFI...n maths 1...
sj n geo r driving me crazy...fill up all my memory space man...
sry maths ... no space available 4 u...zzz...
geo...sj...geo...sj...geo...sj...geo...sj...geo...sj...geo...sj...CRAZY man!!!

ok,i think i gotta stop blogging now n go study the crazy stuff...
[Fyi, i'm eating a maggie now...hehe...maggie 4 lunch...on diet??? NO WAY 4 a food addictor]

~Z.X~

Second day of exam...

2nd day of exam...got moral...BI...maths 2
wasei...moral...i die man ...know y?
cuz got piagam sekolah...zzz...what's on earth is that???
i din memorize that 1 lolz...i jz memorize moto,misi,visi...only...

maths 2 ...arh... 1st ques wrong edi...hehe
others ok...think so...ahha

BI...well...b4 the test i kept stuffing all those characteristics into my small little mind...
but...din come out...zzz...
[actually luckly lar din come out...cuz i'm not sure whether i know how 2 write anyway]
hehe ... xP...
objective got few questions tembak...
some kena...some miss... normal...haha

2moro got kh n bc...hmm...can relax a bit...0.1% lolz...haha
it's raining now...again...time 2 shower n study...aisei $ & $

~Z.X~

First day of 1st term exam

2day is the 1st day of 1st term exam of 2009...
science n bm jz past... but still got 3 days 2 go ... oh man~~
science so far i think is ok..jz ok...i THINK ...
BM-dead...
the 2nd ques of my ringkasan pemahaman should have seperate into 2 sentences...
n i knew that...jz that i was hesitating ...
then...becuz lacking of confidence...i DIN !!! i din seperate it ...oh man~!~!
i was like so damn myself after the exam...
wad to do??? aisei...blame myself lar...saddy...

well...i shouldn't online now...since i haven't prepare 4 tomorrow exam...
p.moral , BI , Maths 2 ...
aiyo...aisei...lolx... ( my favourites expressions...xP)

***this is my 1st post...everything is so "1st"...haha***

~z.x~