1 day before 5th of May

today is 1 day before 5th of May...not exactly 1 day...

i dun really like the date....eventhough it sounds very nice...(5/5)

but jz that i got lots of bad memories....happened on that particular date...almost every year...

so now...i think i got fobia towards that date...

i'm freaking tired now...very tired...indeed...

but i jz dun dare to sleep...

dun dare to close my eyes...

my eyes ... really can't open now...

but i still force myself to open them big wide...

zzz....sleepy...tired...
but ....

I CAN' T SLEEP !!!

i need to sleep...i have to sleep...
but

HOW ???

~Z.X~ panda